Are u the one?

just wish that you wasn't like what you are now

NOBODY IS PERFECT!

human being are meant to selfish... yeah... u and me are the same..
we are selfish... and we like to pin-point other people's bad but not ourselves..
is kinda sick of tis kinda feeling sumtimes... but cant blame...
tis is human being natural....

when u are pointing ur finger to other's ur remaining 3 finger is pointing back at u...
do u realize it???

tis means that when u are referring to other's.... u are also referring to urself...

everyone have their own style... character but tis doesn't means that others can accept it...
but u also cant expect the person change themselves in short term...

AND who doesn't make a mistake right???
but please bear on mind.... when u wan other people to respect u... u must learn to respect urself and others FIRST!

don't always take things for granted!

i post this because I AM SICK with sumbody in my company from other department...
even he read this I ALSO DON'T CARE!
because i want to let him know that....
i talk to u in that way because u have make me really got pissed at u...
u make me hate u... and dun want to work together with uuuu...
u take things from granted and push all the blame to our department...
and i thinks that i dun owe u an explanation... BECAUSE IS NOT OUR FAULT!
I MORE LAZY TO TALK TO U... THAN U DO!
go and complain to UR BELOVED BOSS WHATEVER U WAN!!!
I DON'T HECK CARE!!!!

10 months quickly pass...when i got my cert...
i'll say BYEBYE! =PPPPP
and don't need to see ur jerk face anymore!

happy / unhappy

out of sudden felt like blogging...
don't know why... just FELT!

well, i'm kinda happy this morning...
because... i'm going to have my 1st class later at evening...
yeah... im back to further my study... is like FINALLY!!!
really vry happy and excited...
and start to wondering who is my mates and how they look like... how they behave like...

this morning... my weifeng pig sent me sweet breakie...
yeah is like damn sweet can??!! cos is rain this morning...
kinda heart pain also... and starting from now...
i will appreciate all things that he did for me...
i mean like in the past... i DO appreciate... but the feeling is different like now...
because something happen few days back...
all right... thanks god that giving us a chance to stay tough than before...
hahaha!!!

well... unhappy is...
i saw somebody attacking me at her facebook...
yeah... i'm kinda sad too...
ok... i don't know whether i'm in fault or not...
IF i made a mistake... please come and tell me face to face...
but not attacking me like that... i rather people come and point at me..

anyway... who doesn't not make mistake???!!! right?

and TO THAT PERSON, are you sure that i am all to blame and u does not need to bear some responsible that cause people to misunderstood u??? i don't know whether she will read this or not but i am not here to blame her to talk to me in the tone of not behaving herself yesterday...
i just want her to know that her talking tone me is really making me pissed with her...

and don't simply say things that's is not TRUE!

confusing~

hey people, I"M BACK!!!!
yeah!!! i know... my blog it's expensive now... because it's KARAT!!!!
LOL~~~
ok... shut up those craps!

yeah.... lately... i'm ok... but i'm in confusing situation...
what have happen???!!!

it's about my ex..
he look for me!
it's like after so many years....
recently... he come into my life AGAIN!!!
it's not my life... but also weifeng life...
it's hard to explain why....
i'm really scare...
scare for myself....
i know that dar dar trust me a lot...
he won't ask much about my ex...
even my ex called me... dar dar is beside me....
i asked him, why he did not ask about it...
he said "because i trust you, my dear!"
yeah....
i have his word...
but i scare...
scare of my heart will shake...
i am totally lost my confident....

please... i wish i can be tough enough to continue my current relationship!!!
i love him more than anything...

why do u wan to come into my life again when i finally get u out of my life?

Im comfortable wif my current life wif the person i love the most!

what i want for my future???

future... seem is kind of far to me..
i can't see any of my future...
nobody understand me...
i felt that... the distance between me and my family, my friends is not like how it used to be...
they used to be my supporter... my shoulder... my ear... my everything...
but now.... i don't felt this...
i don't no why...
when i am still a kid...
i always felt that my family always unfair to me... especially my dad...
i remember... he used to promise me to get something for me whenever i help him take something... but in the end he did not fulfill it...
i don't mind all this... what i need is only their attention... their caring... their love...
it's only something simple like this...
but when time grow longer... and i became a teen... all this feeling were still remain the same...
i tried very hard to get their attention by getting better grades... and all... but... they let me feel it's not better enough...
because... what i get is not what i want...
i am in trouble... the settle everything for me... only that session i felt their love for me is actually there...

but... all this feeling is only in short time! yeah~ SHORT TIME!
why i say so??? i also don't know how can i explain it...

i know... my dad actually very look down on me...
i don't why... maybe it's because i am not his candy eyes...

when i am out of work... i regret... i regret for what i do in the past... the matter that made my life have big different... so huge... yeah... it hurts me a lot sometimes when i am thinking back...
well... i blame myself sometimes too...

anyhow, after sometimes of work... i feel i am like going back to study... yeah... i really wish to continue or start all over again... i don't mind... all i want is i don't want others to look down upon me... especially my families...

i start to search college... part-time... consider of changing work to match my part time timetable..
and i been asking my friends... nobody know it.... only my friends that i asked about the study thing and my boyfriend...

after sometime of searching and all... i told my parent about it...
but in return i get is... a pile of cold water pore on my head...
they made conclusion quickly saying that i won't make it and this and that...
i know they sounds disapprove... but they did not sound out directly...

it hurts me a lot... nobody is there to support me...
from the day i start to think to going back and continue my studies...
i make myself clear that i won't take a single cents from the old one....
but... they don't believe... because of my past...

if it's like that... what for they want to save me back???
let me die at other place it should be more better...
bringing me back here it's actually make me more suffer...
because of the way they treat me like i am the black sheep of the family...
i am useless... hopeless... everything that is 'less' is also me...
because i am just an SPM holder....................................................................................

laz few more hours!!!

omg!!!!
i cant believe it!!!!
im gonna meet ting ting tonight!!!
she's gonna stay over at my place until sunday!!!
so so so so excited!!!
gonna have ♥ to ♥ talk with her....
have not ♥ to ♥ talk ever since N years ago...
i cnt remember when is our laz ♥ to ♥ talk...
cos it have been so so so so so so long ago....
i remember i laz seen her is on her 21st bday in singapore...
celebrate wif her...
mt...
n kitaro...


finally...
she's planned to come here...
n im gonna spend all my time on her...
cos i dunno when she's coming again after this..
hehes....
see ya tonight ting!!!!
^O^

^__________________^

referring to my previous post..
well... its a conflict... misunderstanding...
hope things would turn better...
and remain the same like before...
im still ur bestest fren bestest sister...
u are oso the same in my heart and in ur heart too!!!!
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