work life

hi bloggie....

I'm so so so so DOWN now....
work today are totally MESSED and PISSED!

Now, I'm starting to regret and thinking myself is so STUPID!
This is because during May, I got better offer from other firm but I choose to stay.
DAMN GOD! Now only I realize that I'm not happy with my work here.

Some 'so-called' thick-skinned people thinks that HE IS THE BOSS OF THE COMPANY said to me earful words. It really hurts me a lots.

Anyhow, in working society, the politics are rarely common.
Maybe I should grow up and move on! =(

sense the mood

hi everyone...

as i told seraphina too... im gonna update my blog before i leave malaysia in case this is my last post...
god knows wat will happen during this fewdays, right?
LOL
yeah!!! im leaving malaysia for bangkok on this coming long weekend!!!
hee hee... so excited....
this time im going with my beloved BROTHER!

cos both of us are shopaholic! so we gonna shop TILL WE DROP!
i hardly find a guy as shopaholic as me! so i guess my brother will be the BEST CHOICE!
ohhh... i know some of you will be curious that why im not going with my bf...
is because he is so busy with work nowadays and i remember he said... if he is going bangkok with me... he will be the one carry all bags behind me... and I, walk in front of him happily shop...


all right... to avoid such scenario happen... so just leave him at malaysia la!!! LOL!!!

all right im gonna stop shitting here...
byebye malaysia and sawadee kaa thailand!!! ^^

bloged

I just want to make my blog more alive... LOL

well, my diploma of accounting have finally come to the end.
Last class ended last night. Group picture taken, but have not up yet.
Still inside my cam. LOL
So, the day that I will be free during my weekdays are Mon, Tue, Wed & Thur.

As for weekend, I'm always FREE!!!! hahahaha!!! ^^

I'm thinking to go for a short break, but I don't know where to go and who to go with?
2 days 1 night should be enough

YESTERDAY, was chatting with SY, about DAD.
Which leads me damn sad yet damn excited,
yeahhhh... I know that I being complain a lots about daddy last time.
hmmmmm..... Maybe is because I felt he bias a lotsssssssssssssssssssssssss.......
BUT...... I think he tried his best to give us all the best he could.
I know there is a limitation for him.
YES! Someone will stop him sometimes.
So, just be understanding abitttttt.... LOL~~~

OMG!!!! I don't know what the hell im blogging about... bahhhhhhh....
just some feeling that I want to SHARE!!!! ><

Well, I'm going HOLIDAY after my exam which is falls on Jan 2011.
I know is kind of LONG WAY from now but I'm just being KIASU!!!
Maybe is due to LONG STAY in Singapore that's why I act like that. LOL
Location already SET :-

• HONG KONG
• TAIWAN

YUP! One of THEM!

IF RUBY and Xueling is going then will be TAIWAN.
IF is not, HONGKONG will then! WITH Ms. YEOHHHHH!!!! hahahhaa!!!! 7days - 8 days trip!


I'm excited actually! It's been so long after my last OVERSEAS HOLIDAY!!!
Andddddddddd.... different feeling.... becauseeee.... I'm going with MY FRIENDS!!!
1st trippppp!!!!
oklahhhhhhhhhh..... IS LIKE 1st OVERSEAS TRIP with FRIENDS...........
not LOCAL!!!! LOL!!!!
LOCAL is a lots a lots time already... I can't remember... =P
Usually, my overseas trip is with my familyyyy.... so..... hope you can feel how I feel ya!

hahaha!!!!


Nancy mummy ajak-ed me to JAPAN actually.
It's really turned me ON!
And I almost CANCEL my HK / TW trip!
buttttttttt..... SY was telling me that DAD BRING US THERE!!!!!!!!!
woooooooooooottttttttt!!!!!!
I don't WHEN! I'm so excited!!! PROBABLY next year.
Sooooo... I REJECTED Nancy mummy's OFFER!!!
Actually dad was planning THIS YEAR!!!! But.... something is upppp that's why postpone... =(
HOPEFULLY NEXT YEAR BEFORE JULY!!!



yeahhhhh, my next intake will be in JULY 2011. SO I have to go mana-mana before JULY!
If happens Friends trip + JApan comes together!
I will become DAMN BROKE! =(
This is because I only expect dad pay for my

• Air ticket,
• Accommodation
• MAKAN MAKAN
  

• entrance fees to places like Disneyland or whatever?

Shopping I'll PAY MYSELF!


BOOOOOOMMMZZZZzzzzz.... I GONNNA START SAVING NOWWWWWWWW!!!!!!
Don't CARE whether JAPAN trip with family is ON or NOT! JUST SAVE!!!!
hahahhaa!!! ^^


ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..... before I endddddddddd....
SY's convo approaching! Coming MONDAY!!!
=(
I can't attend!!! Due to WORKKKKKKKK......... Office renovation loooo... so many things to doooo.....
but nevermindddddddddd.... babi eng, mummy and daddy gonna attendddd...
yeahhh I'm going to miss the fun =(
still, tomorrow going to studio to take family portrait picture! =D
so excited!!!! Still thinking which clothes to WEAR!!! hahaha!!!
yeahhh I want to look leng leng!!! ^^
anywayssss..... ALL THE BEST SISTER! muaks muaks!!! ^^

Lovely dog

i shall mark this day a memorable one...
8 years ago... my grandma pass away on this date...
she bet on world cup final that brazil (if im not wrong) will win the champion.
the second that the results is out, my grandma pass away peacefully...

then today, the dog that i adore the most among all...
had pass away.
well... to be frankly, i am sad!
but... think from the other way, its a way that let her ends wat she is suffering right now..
i shall thank god to let her come home when she admitted to hospital.... let her to stay with us for few week after she's bck and thank god to let her stay her last breath until all of us is here...
thank you very much...

To Xiong Xiong:
we will always remember u because u r the bestest wan among all...
and all of us adore u the most...
remember to go find grandma... she will let u hav a lot of nice food...
go find ur mummy... the old dog... chocolate and ur other siblings...
enjoy urself in the place where the angels will protect u...
and get well from ur sickness...
what is important that... we are glad to hav u this nice dog...
and hopefully ur next life either u become a human or animal ur life will be good without worries...

u will be remembered...

loves u always and forever.

I'll not sure whether my friends still reading this blog or not?

as promised to one of my friend,
she just starto her 1st online business dealing with branded scarves and handkerchiefs...
which i found that is attractive and reasonable price...
all those scarves are fully imported all the way from Paris, London and Tokyo what's important is....





those branded stuff ARE LIMITED!!!!
it cum with a branded envelope...
those envelope will be given when you purchase the scarves...






don't worry... it's authentic...
because the envelope that given is the PROVE of the REAL!
if u still worry that's a fake... u bring it to the retails and verify it...






well... its a new business... the name are still new in the market.... so... please be the first to support and give ur feedback and intro to your friends.... relatives.. parents and peoples that u knw...








plz help the business build a good name!

here.... it's the blogspot link:

• Doodle&Moods

facebook fan page

• Fan Pages

Thank you very much people!!!!!

rainy day

These few days, i cry a lots.
Just like today's weather.


*i love u my lovely xiong xiong

please recover and stay healthy

please buck up my dear
i just want you to be like last time.
PLEASE~~~ ='(

22nd birthday part 1

lalala.... im back with my 22nd birthday post...

birthday celebration is full of surprise and happiness...
hmmm... there's 4 parts of celebration...
so this is the 1st part... as all the pic havent up on fb yet...
due to my LAZYNESS!!! bear it ok?! i try to done it by tonight...
well.... this is the 1st part... is on saturday night... let the pic do the talk can?
DUE TO MY LAZYNESS!!! =x

taman sutera utama loudspeaker
kitaro's so called DA LA PA

just reach.. just have unlimited topic and gossip
=x

she busy with her BB as her BABY is inside her BB

while waiting for meitong and kitaro, we cam abit la
=x

see... dar dar busy talking to his another girlfriend..
sera busy dating with her BB
LOL


artistic shot that taken by me!!!


meitong and kitaro was late... and meitong is sick that night...
but she still make it for me!!! so damn FRIEND lo!!!
hahaha... and she also DAMN ENJOYED lo!!!



sera sing damn serious lo!!!


ting ting also sing damn SERIOUS

kitaro lagi serious... until tears also came out
LOL!!!

lovey dovey sing love song ^^


haha... some funny scenario happen in the room...
not all pics can be post on net

sexy BACK

he dance!!!!

omg!!! wat dance is he dancing??!!

then later on... CAKE CAME IN!!!!
CHEESE CAKE!!!
kitaro said that she bought wrong...
BUT... IS STILL NICE!!!! ^^

then ting ting... meitong... sera sing using the MIKE!!!
happy birthday to you
then becoming
happy birthday ZHU YOU (PIG OIL)
=.=|||


group pic!!! ^^

my protector... my shelter... my everything!!!




thanks to meitong lo... hahaha~~~
lucky my protector able to stop NEO TING TING...
otherwise.... is not only like that...
they also like to waste the yummy cake de lo!!!
=p

after cake session... we continue sing song...

she sing until so comfy lo!!!!

then dar dar fall asleep....
due to his LAZYNESS!!!!
then meitong keep bug him ask him to wake up!!!
ask him to sing...
LOL!!!!

then we sang lo!!!
until so shiok stand at the SOFA!!!!

WINNER OF THE NIGHT


got pose got style got everything
LOL

both mulut buka until so BIG / HUGE
LOL

cos they sang

死了都要爱！

thats y they got so SHIOK!!!!

*million thanks to u ppl!!! u ppl are jz great frens and shelter!!!
i LOVe U ALLYA!!!! ^^

gift from meitong kitaro ting ting and sera...
cos my existing CDPLAYER DIE!!!

THANKS ALOT BABIES!!!!

lets countdown together! ^^

wooohooo~~~
my birthday is around the corner...
i wonder how will be my birthday this year...
every year my birthday event will be kinda huge event with frens and family around me...
such like... club... party at home... sing k.... dinner with loves one... and soooo....




well... this year......
i wan sumthing simple + love in the celebration and not forgetting SURPRISE!!!
hehesss!!! so... anyone that wanted to celebrate with me... can u all jz plan it without me???
cos my theme of the year is SIMPLE + LOVE + SURPRISE!!! LOL!!! ^^


*plz dun waste money to buy me present ya... important is the celebration ^^

Are u the one?

just wish that you wasn't like what you are now

NOBODY IS PERFECT!

human being are meant to selfish... yeah... u and me are the same..
we are selfish... and we like to pin-point other people's bad but not ourselves..
is kinda sick of tis kinda feeling sumtimes... but cant blame...
tis is human being natural....

when u are pointing ur finger to other's ur remaining 3 finger is pointing back at u...
do u realize it???

tis means that when u are referring to other's.... u are also referring to urself...

everyone have their own style... character but tis doesn't means that others can accept it...
but u also cant expect the person change themselves in short term...

AND who doesn't make a mistake right???
but please bear on mind.... when u wan other people to respect u... u must learn to respect urself and others FIRST!

don't always take things for granted!

i post this because I AM SICK with sumbody in my company from other department...
even he read this I ALSO DON'T CARE!
because i want to let him know that....
i talk to u in that way because u have make me really got pissed at u...
u make me hate u... and dun want to work together with uuuu...
u take things from granted and push all the blame to our department...
and i thinks that i dun owe u an explanation... BECAUSE IS NOT OUR FAULT!
I MORE LAZY TO TALK TO U... THAN U DO!
go and complain to UR BELOVED BOSS WHATEVER U WAN!!!
I DON'T HECK CARE!!!!

10 months quickly pass...when i got my cert...
i'll say BYEBYE! =PPPPP
and don't need to see ur jerk face anymore!

happy / unhappy

out of sudden felt like blogging...
don't know why... just FELT!

well, i'm kinda happy this morning...
because... i'm going to have my 1st class later at evening...
yeah... im back to further my study... is like FINALLY!!!
really vry happy and excited...
and start to wondering who is my mates and how they look like... how they behave like...

this morning... my weifeng pig sent me sweet breakie...
yeah is like damn sweet can??!! cos is rain this morning...
kinda heart pain also... and starting from now...
i will appreciate all things that he did for me...
i mean like in the past... i DO appreciate... but the feeling is different like now...
because something happen few days back...
all right... thanks god that giving us a chance to stay tough than before...
hahaha!!!

well... unhappy is...
i saw somebody attacking me at her facebook...
yeah... i'm kinda sad too...
ok... i don't know whether i'm in fault or not...
IF i made a mistake... please come and tell me face to face...
but not attacking me like that... i rather people come and point at me..

anyway... who doesn't not make mistake???!!! right?

and TO THAT PERSON, are you sure that i am all to blame and u does not need to bear some responsible that cause people to misunderstood u??? i don't know whether she will read this or not but i am not here to blame her to talk to me in the tone of not behaving herself yesterday...
i just want her to know that her talking tone me is really making me pissed with her...

and don't simply say things that's is not TRUE!

confusing~

hey people, I"M BACK!!!!
yeah!!! i know... my blog it's expensive now... because it's KARAT!!!!
LOL~~~
ok... shut up those craps!

yeah.... lately... i'm ok... but i'm in confusing situation...
what have happen???!!!

it's about my ex..
he look for me!
it's like after so many years....
recently... he come into my life AGAIN!!!
it's not my life... but also weifeng life...
it's hard to explain why....
i'm really scare...
scare for myself....
i know that dar dar trust me a lot...
he won't ask much about my ex...
even my ex called me... dar dar is beside me....
i asked him, why he did not ask about it...
he said "because i trust you, my dear!"
yeah....
i have his word...
but i scare...
scare of my heart will shake...
i am totally lost my confident....

please... i wish i can be tough enough to continue my current relationship!!!
i love him more than anything...

why do u wan to come into my life again when i finally get u out of my life?

Im comfortable wif my current life wif the person i love the most!

what i want for my future???

future... seem is kind of far to me..
i can't see any of my future...
nobody understand me...
i felt that... the distance between me and my family, my friends is not like how it used to be...
they used to be my supporter... my shoulder... my ear... my everything...
but now.... i don't felt this...
i don't no why...
when i am still a kid...
i always felt that my family always unfair to me... especially my dad...
i remember... he used to promise me to get something for me whenever i help him take something... but in the end he did not fulfill it...
i don't mind all this... what i need is only their attention... their caring... their love...
it's only something simple like this...
but when time grow longer... and i became a teen... all this feeling were still remain the same...
i tried very hard to get their attention by getting better grades... and all... but... they let me feel it's not better enough...
because... what i get is not what i want...
i am in trouble... the settle everything for me... only that session i felt their love for me is actually there...

but... all this feeling is only in short time! yeah~ SHORT TIME!
why i say so??? i also don't know how can i explain it...

i know... my dad actually very look down on me...
i don't why... maybe it's because i am not his candy eyes...

when i am out of work... i regret... i regret for what i do in the past... the matter that made my life have big different... so huge... yeah... it hurts me a lot sometimes when i am thinking back...
well... i blame myself sometimes too...

anyhow, after sometimes of work... i feel i am like going back to study... yeah... i really wish to continue or start all over again... i don't mind... all i want is i don't want others to look down upon me... especially my families...

i start to search college... part-time... consider of changing work to match my part time timetable..
and i been asking my friends... nobody know it.... only my friends that i asked about the study thing and my boyfriend...

after sometime of searching and all... i told my parent about it...
but in return i get is... a pile of cold water pore on my head...
they made conclusion quickly saying that i won't make it and this and that...
i know they sounds disapprove... but they did not sound out directly...

it hurts me a lot... nobody is there to support me...
from the day i start to think to going back and continue my studies...
i make myself clear that i won't take a single cents from the old one....
but... they don't believe... because of my past...

if it's like that... what for they want to save me back???
let me die at other place it should be more better...
bringing me back here it's actually make me more suffer...
because of the way they treat me like i am the black sheep of the family...
i am useless... hopeless... everything that is 'less' is also me...
because i am just an SPM holder....................................................................................

laz few more hours!!!

omg!!!!
i cant believe it!!!!
im gonna meet ting ting tonight!!!
she's gonna stay over at my place until sunday!!!
so so so so excited!!!
gonna have ♥ to ♥ talk with her....
have not ♥ to ♥ talk ever since N years ago...
i cnt remember when is our laz ♥ to ♥ talk...
cos it have been so so so so so so long ago....
i remember i laz seen her is on her 21st bday in singapore...
celebrate wif her...
mt...
n kitaro...


finally...
she's planned to come here...
n im gonna spend all my time on her...
cos i dunno when she's coming again after this..
hehes....
see ya tonight ting!!!!
^O^

^__________________^

referring to my previous post..
well... its a conflict... misunderstanding...
hope things would turn better...
and remain the same like before...
im still ur bestest fren bestest sister...
u are oso the same in my heart and in ur heart too!!!!
^__________________________________^

meant!

im really speechless!!!!
totally disappointed!!!
yeah... fuck off!!!!
get ur ass out off my life!!!!
im not a spare tayar when ur fren is not around...
damn it!!!!